Word’s gotten around at church about my application to seminary. Last week two people mentioned it, then this week four did. I imagine the senior pastor brought it up at the last board meeting, in order to discuss what they would do if I left – whether to look for someone within the church, or [...]
Archive for the ‘doubt’ Category
Failing in Solitude
Posted in doubt, seminary on June 6, 2007 | 8 Comments »
Silence
Posted in courage, doubt on January 7, 2007 | 2 Comments »
Do they make heavenly earplugs to drown out the world? ‘Cause I could use some.
The Post I’ve Been Avoiding
Posted in doubt, seminary on January 3, 2007 | 8 Comments »
I’ve been avoiding this entry for a long time. But I’ve decided to finally face the music, suck it up and just type. Do I want to be a pastor? I’ve been asked that a lot in the last several months. Since I was in high school I’ve had a few church members tell me [...]
Wish You Were Here
Posted in doubt, reconciliation on September 7, 2006 | Leave a Comment »
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,blue skies from pain.Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?Do you think you can tell? And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze?Cold comfort for change? [...]
What If It All Means Something
Posted in doubt, identity on June 22, 2006 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve been pondering a little about why I write here. Never too great at the handwritten journal, I was skeptical when I decided to start on online journal. That was three years ago (on zorpia.com) and true to form, I didn’t keep up with it. I wrote enough, I guess, but I just wasn’t consistent. [...]
Being Called
Posted in doubt, seminary on April 9, 2006 | Leave a Comment »
God doesn’t called the qualified… he qualifies the called. It’s a favorite saying in my current circle of friends and while I appreciate the sentiment, I’m not sure I’m comfortable with the attitude of “throwing caution to the wind” because I fear this saying can promote that. So here comes a fundamental question: “How do [...]
Authentic
Posted in church, doubt, experiencing God on December 1, 2005 | Leave a Comment »
What I’m listening to: My Restoration mix Five Qualities of an Effective Worship Leader (by Lamar Boschman) 1.) Knowledge of God (Have a large view of God) 2.) A Heart Shaped by Worship (Be a worshiper in private) 3.) Intuitiveness (Sensitivity to the Holy Spirit is essential) 4.) Pastoral Heart (Be a leader of people [...]
Playing Pitch and Laughing
Posted in doubt, good stuff on November 21, 2005 | Leave a Comment »
What I’m listening to: Norah Jones’ Feels Like Home My sides hurt. From laughing. I’ve been part of a small group bible study for almost a year now. I love it. Every Monday, we meet and go through the study we are currently on. It’s all women about my age, and we have an amazing [...]
