Something is not right in my spirit right now. I don’t know what that means, exactly, but I feel it in my gut. And I need to process. What is disequilibrating to me, in my life, right now? My professor spoke about disequilibration in class a while ago, how Jesus used it to teach, how [...]
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Disequilibration
Posted in identity, seminary on April 2, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Living in Grace
Posted in identity, seminary on October 28, 2008 | 4 Comments »
There is nothing that shows me God’s grace more that old reformed hymns. “Jesus Lover of My Soul” “Friend of Sinners” “Pensive Doubting Fearful Heart“. I love how they shows my need for grace as it reveals the sin in my heart. They reveal my incapability to do any good on my own, and reminds [...]
A Path Laid Out Before Me
Posted in identity, seminary on October 10, 2008 | 4 Comments »
One of the best things about Covenant Theological Seminary is the Spiritual Ministry Formation class. It is here where students in the MDiv and MAEM programs are subjected to personality test after personality test, then a serious amount of personal reflection in order to figure out and understand how God made you. Wednesday was the [...]
Promise
Posted in experiencing God, seminary on August 9, 2008 | 14 Comments »
Wednesday night on my way to church for my last praise team rehearsal, I accidentally took my usual route, forgetting that two weeks ago my usual exit was closed for construction. So instead of taking an alternate route I ended up having to drive about 4-5 miles out of my way. And as I turned [...]
Bracing Myself
Posted in seminary on November 9, 2007 | 4 Comments »
Today I had an admissions interview with Covenant Seminary. After the disappointing financial aid package I received from Bethel Seminary, I went through a sort of “grieving process”. My heart was set on Bethel for a number of reasons, and when I received a total of $600 in financial aid for a school that would [...]
Bad Charter. Bad. (And an update of sorts)
Posted in seminary on August 27, 2007 | 2 Comments »
Last week I went through extremely patchy internet service, with most nights not being able to connect at all. It wasn’t my modem, Charter said, and it took them a week to get someone here to fix it. I’m really glad I can go to the office after hours and get done what I need [...]
Why I Feel Like a Coward Today
Posted in seminary on August 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Today I did two important things… I called the housing director at Bethel Seminary and told her I would not be moving into the apartment they had reserved for me. Then I signed my financial aid package form, checked “No, I will not be attending Bethel Seminary and I reject all aids and grants”, then [...]
Why I haven’t posted in over a week
Posted in seminary on June 25, 2007 | 10 Comments »
I’ve been busy hyperventilating.
Failing in Solitude
Posted in doubt, seminary on June 6, 2007 | 8 Comments »
Word’s gotten around at church about my application to seminary. Last week two people mentioned it, then this week four did. I imagine the senior pastor brought it up at the last board meeting, in order to discuss what they would do if I left – whether to look for someone within the church, or [...]
The Post I’ve Been Avoiding
Posted in doubt, seminary on January 3, 2007 | 8 Comments »
I’ve been avoiding this entry for a long time. But I’ve decided to finally face the music, suck it up and just type. Do I want to be a pastor? I’ve been asked that a lot in the last several months. Since I was in high school I’ve had a few church members tell me [...]
